CheekyFox

take me again, as you have a thousand times and a thousand more do what must be done, just fuck me up crack me open again to your calculating eyes and rearrange pull out what doesn't make the cut, implant what's needed, switch some ports around and rewire at your leisure at my oath i've known the agony without anesthesia more times than not so don't fret, i don't like painkillers anyway smile your crooked triangled smile for me, Son of the Leafy Isle, let me glimpse your laughing pockmarked lips, the pain will come and go in ripples let it shake the whole Earth as i scream spells into jagged winds from the rock on which i'm bound i have always belonged to you and always will, so take our shared heart in your clawed hand to keep this thing beating for me i will bleed out as many times as it takes

blacken, blacken, briar and bracken black and blue the berries blush down the darkest drumbeat tappin derry, dale, and downs to hush cold the cauldron, crunch and crackle caw the crows a cackling cant howling haunts raise high the hackle hungry hunters heave and pant hie to hallowed hawthorn hedges horned hands hail depths and heights claw the corn, cut clean the edges clear and cleanse for Samhain night Lady Death the doorway deepens dear departed drawing near by the bones a blackbird sleepin bid to bed the bitter year

i have been tossed by terrible tempests for time untold alone i rebuff these raging riptides with only shouts from shore to show me somewhere, there is solid soil leagues below, the seabed sings of spite; anchor's toss takes twice-two hands whitecap crests a-crashing, keen to capsize hail and lightning lay me low as my mast's middle madly snaps, i plead impious prayer to heedless heavens haggard hope unhanded memories missing and then. sudden scraping wood on wood knocks my knees to kneeling with vision of your vessel, violated, riven to ribbons and riddled with cannonfire clusters glittering golden tresses tangled in the torrent haul your shaking shivers aboard while swells consume the old ship's shattered shards they drown in darkened depths panting, gasping, goosebumps graven in my gut why would a Valkyrie sail this supercell? what callous creature cast you coldly off to chaos? exhales exchange and you awake, in terror trembling it's not over yet, i say your rasped response:

we are made of the dust of nebulae, water tension, and gravity's loving embrace that keeps us from flying off this rock don't ever forget what you are a funny little miracle hurtling through space, a carbon-based rarity running on strange fuels a genetic compendium of living things going back to the dawning-day, when the first amino acids became the first gleam of our world's waking sentience simmering down in the deep ocean vents where sulfur and searing heat nourish endless creatures still look down at your fingers and marvel, look at the curve of your arms look at your fucking bones- -what a marvelous structure to have inherited, wouldn't our distant invertebrate forebears be so flummoxed? anyway, where was i? oh yes- -you are the universe dancing you are fire laughing, water reshaping, earth unyielding, air heaving and shifting you are carbon and hydrogen and oxygen and sodium and proteins and lipids and dreams our entire solar system smells of the same iron you taste

i scurry along in my big rainbow coat, hiding this cackling fey heart with its teeth bared behind city lampposts standing on empty trains, don't fucking touch me, keep your piles of noisy whining electronic shit out of my ears in public, leave me alone, don't look at me, don't call the beast up from the depths while i am trapped in such a place, please god damn you and in the eternal parade of garish fluorescence, incomprehensible hideous dances, frothing self-obsessed murderous authorities, of humanity ad nauseam in its full glory and ruin for the eight billionth time, little flashes of fellow fair folk peek out from the other lampposts whom i must love or else forget to love myself like a half-forgotten past i haven't lived yet or a future i already know, teaching me what i am (???) and what i can't be: normal. never in a hundred billion years will i know what that word means and i don't need to so why is it stuck burning in the crevices of my brain? what sad pathetic part of

a child looks up from a darkened summer road and knows the joy of being a youth climbs a house to watch the sky turn from orange to purple stumbling, a vagrant lets his fall reveal lights in yawning blackness overhead leap of inner fire, carrying the bowl, mantle of power at hand Sovereign In-Sight unveiling supergalactic clusters in webs, in waves an ornate golden mirror shows a black hole whirling through the All nine points of light against this backdrop of eternity beckon across horizons tesseracting memories upon generations, beyond the confines of spacetime - all is One here, nothing remains stagnant, we are riverbeds pouring pure beingness into triangled spiral foaming fells the child doesn't know what he knows, the youth doesn't understand, and the vagrant runs from it but we all must come home at last to the boundless skies that we are to see how the trails of stardust lead back to our own eyes, watching trillions of glittering twins in the Milky Way

Now the mountainsides have ripened and the fields are full of hay All acorns fall to meet the Mother, seeds for future Oaken stand The Wheel is turning sure as moonrise, sure as starlight, sure as day Once more the Holly takes his throne, let sleep the land

and it's slow and sweet and warm, the press of loving hands on skin, cascaded kisses it's the weight of your head on my chest, breathing in tandem and carding fingers through your hair whispers and giggles and horrible jokes under the blankets you brought from your bed rocking heads in time with the drums, distant lights on long empty highways through the night, a mattress in a truck bed and the promise of everything to come all our dreams on the horizon ahead do you know what it means, on this journey, to look up at the night sky to draw starlight into the prism of you, through your very heart? have you fallen back through the lightning and the cold of the ocean spray through an endless shivering murky green on to troves beyond coin underneath? the ebb and flow of the heavens that brought me here and cast me to your sands for the first time i am cherished, i feel eternal in the arms of another and i will rip the throat out of anyone who tries to take the light from your